I have been thinking a lot about consciousness manifesting and true awakening. I have had extremely trippy... trips without much more than "Buddha Meditation" that comes naturally, relaxing my eyes and seeing reality manifest beyond that of any established patterns, and many other techniques of conscious understanding in any level, or perspective. Life has been... well I don't know. Perhaps I am becoming awake while trying to sleep. Well regardless of the thought of "will the reader understand?" I came here to ask about drugs like peyote, mushrooms, LSD, and what all these drugs "point at". I've been on a strange trip with Alan Watts, Ram Dass, Maharajji, and now Timothy leary. I want to know if these sacred drugs will expand my true perception. I keep wondering "since I have built up quite a foundation of 'what is life' I can go in to something like mushrooms and meet my guru, find my spirit, find true self and perhaps even the ego will be realized in its entirety. I know that just by thinking, I am manifesting, but even if I go within, alone, and wanting to, I find that there has not been enough truth right before me to really go within with a full free fall. It has always come to me as mystics, or conscious attention and truth within each interaction, but I have never tried to accept all the truth. I always tell myself that the truth is within all objects but only by doing any method I find that the method holds me back. perhaps these substances can make me more "one pointed" in the mind, and perhaps allow me to manifest forever.